Friday, February 17, 2017

A life called Beautiful Constellation - Part I

As I google up looking for what a constellation would mean its synonym was "a group of stars forming a recognizable pattern that is traditionally named after its apparent form or identified with a mythological figure". 

Have we ever thought if you had different things as separate entities in life but all of these  in cusp form to be a beautifully tailored constellation called LIFE....A single LIFE is all what we have to create this beautiful dimensional 3D architeture... Interesting isn't it. 

Where should I start... I had three major entities to build this so called single life.. MYSELF, FAMILY and WORK... while these for anyone forms gross skeleton creating a pragmatic shape as we move on becomes crucial, smaller chunks of each of these pillars adds salt and pepper to our life.

 A life that is been gifted out of love making by two individuals  in happy, secretive, fearful and a little shameful mood cling together and a life gets boomed. This magic of pouring life into womb has been one thing that has fantasized all my life this is where the first star of my constellation started to blink...MYSELF.. its just food and a little space was what I had all needed to be happy...was I happy? I am unsure on my mood but for sure my heart beat was hale and healthy and I am sure the soul inside me was growing into a bigger and  brighter blinking star day by day.

It was a day when I had to be fearful as things were not great in shape, a place that had been hosting for all this while had shrunken and I was pushed out into a world of difference, cool wind hit me, unknown giants handle me and talk with each other. I am able to do different things which I had never done, I breathed, pee ed, opened my big eyes to look around. The star inside me started to flicker but known whispers of my mom and dad that I had herd sounded soothing and a room space to move myself and warm hands that could cuddle me gave me a temporary relief from scaredom. Now it was food, place to live and hands to protect where essence of being happy...Add up a star called FAMILY started flickering in life and this was the source of brightness to MYSELF star. 

Days went by there were days which gave me pains to overcome with family every step of failure was were I took me to understand FAMILY star was fueling MYSELF star and MYSELF star was always been an acceptor and thats how MYSELF star was blooming bigger and bigger.... wow... what a beautiful sight to see.. a happy , innocent, playful star with glowing eyes... who would not envy such a thing? 

Schooling started which added up an entity but could be kept as a subset under family star... People belonging to my world, can speak my language, as bloomy and happy as I could be, can taste and smell things I love to do who will never advice or say be good  but do the bloody thing along with me, how funny... right from sneaking inside my friends bathroom to see how she pees to opening up a topic that people who feel shy to disclose...

Things started becoming interesting now,this as well was a needed feed to me an addict with which would be serving me as a secondary but seductive source for my star to blink bright... (Stars would continue to become a constellation...please keep watching...)

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